As I sit here to type this post, my house is quiet. It's almost eerie to hear the sound of silence. I miss the sounds of laughter and the sound of my daughter asking in her angelic voice, "Please, Mama, will you put the big pink necklace on me." Avari is staying away from home for the first time. She is going to spend the night with my parents. We are laying wagers on whether she'll call for us to come get her. I suppose we'll have our answer in about an hour.
I am torn between two feelings. On the one hand, I am sad that I will not be tucking my baby in for bed tonight for the first time in her 2 1/2 year old life. On the other hand, I am so excited for her because I remember nights spent with my grandparents. It was a treat always eagerly anticipated and one that I still look back on with the fondest of memories.
I suppose we have waited longer than most to take this step. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that we don't really have many urges to do things that don't include Avari. Perhaps, it is because we did all of that for so many years before she came along that we got it out of our systems. Possibly, we wanted her so much and for so long that even missing one night with her seems a sacrifice of that which we longed for and are so thankful to have. Maybe it is just an acquired taste.
Whatever the reason, I know that Avari will enjoy this time with her MiMi and Pop. It will be good for her and probably good for us if for no other reason than we will enjoy having her home again that much more tomorrow.
So, does anyone care to wager on who will be more homesick - us or Avari? I suppose I've already given you the answer to that one. The winning bet would be on me. I suppose it's just hard work for a girl to raise her parents. I sure hope we turn out OK. I want to make my little girl proud!
Sweet dreams!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Growing Pains
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Transparency Trials
Did you think I had gone AWOL? I have been unable to blog the past few days as my computer time has been limited. My husband has been holding our PC hostage, and I thought I was going to have to take it by force. Fortunately, he surrendered peacefully so there was no bloodshed. It really is a bit sad how lost I have been without my web time. I felt as if I had lost a limb. It's not so much that I surf the web, but I do read a lot, and sitting here typing and reading is cathartic. It is my "me time." Alright, now let's get down to business and spend a few minutes talking about transparency.
Lately, Papa has been asking something of me that is particularly difficult. He has been prodding me to be transparent. The difficulty lies not in the fact that I have something to hide but in the fact that transparency makes me vulnerable. If I allow myself to be seen as who and what I really am, everyone will have the ability to judge, if they so choose, the real me.
I like to think that I am not the only one to struggle with this request. I tend to want people to think the best of me, so I try to put my best foot forward. It doesn't always work, but for the most part, I feel I am well thought of. The words that have been knocking me around lately are "be transparent."
I've always thought that being transparent would just let everyone see everything (positive and negative). However, I took some time today to check the dictionary for a definition of transparent. I hope you'll be as pleasantly surprised as I was by my discovery.
Transparent: Capable of transmitting light so that objects or images can be seen as if there were no intervening material. Wait for it, wait for it. Yes, that was the sound of your mind being blown. Papa has been asking me to be transparent not so everyone can see my junk but so they can see Him.
I know. I was amazed and stupefied as well. All this time I've struggled with how I can be obedient while not showing all my insecurities, etc. Then He shows me that if I will be transparent, people will only see Him through me.
It's kind of like looking through a window. If the window is clouded or dirty, the light does not get through, or at least, it doesn't come through as strongly and clearly. But, if the window is completely transparent, the light we see is brilliant. I don't know about you, but I so don't want to be a dirty window! Matthew 5:14-16 says this:14You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.
So, I'm going to get the Windex out and clean this window. I want to let His light, His radiance, His brilliance shine through me as I endeavor to be transparent.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
How to Teach Your Kid About God
Well, when I put up my Reader's Choice post a couple of weeks ago, I was anxiously anticipating what the topic suggestions would be. Unfortunately, I've only gotten one request. However, I've been giving this topic a lot of thought, and I have not come up with any revelatory ideas. I thought I would give my thoughts on the subject and then ask you for your input. My reader suggested that I write a post on activities that families can do to instill the knowledge of God in their children.
No pressure, right? I have been thinking about this over the last week or so, and I kept coming back to the idea that every day we have opportunities to share our faith with our kids. If we are committed Jesus-lovers, our faith is infused into everything we set our hands to do. Maybe I am just drawing a blank because I'm not very creative on this subject, but God has been speaking to me that rather than trying to invent or create specific instances of sharing my faith with my daughter, I should tune my heart in to the opportunities that He presents. I suppose I will just try to share the way I approach my responsibility of teaching Avari about our Father.
First of all, when we wake in the morning, I try to remember to start our day with a prayer - nothing fancy, just putting Papa first in our lives and asking for His presence and guidance. It doesn't always happen that way. Sometimes we launch right into other things, but that is my intent.
As we wrap up our day and put Avari to bed, we read out of one of her children's Bibles. We give her the opportunity to ask questions, try to pronounce the names of people and places and discuss the events that are taking place in the story. She has a particular affinity to the story of Jonah, the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, and she loves to read about the garden of Gethsemane. Our goal is to make it a bonding time but make it fun too. Of course, if she decides she would rather have a storybook every once in a while, we don't force the issue. We do not want to make it a "religious requirement" that she has to fulfill. We want her to enjoy the Bible.
After we read with her, we say our prayers. She prays first, and then Mommy says a prayer. Last but not least, Daddy prays. Of course, her prayers still revolve around listing all the people who are important to her. Although there are times when she will mention someone we know out of the blue and pray for them. Those are the really cool times because we will often find out later that there was a reason they needed prayer. Oh, to have the faith of a child!
The reason we all pray is that we want her to realize that there is not a right or wrong way to pray - it is a conversation with Father. I know that when I was a child, I did not know how to make the transition from the "list of blessing" prayers to truly speaking my heart to God. By letting her hear our prayers she can see that there is no formula - you are just talking to Papa about what is on your heart. That is real relationship. I mean, if I said the same thing to my husband every day with no changes to the script and no real thought or feeling behind the words, it wouldn't have much meaning, would it?
The last thing we do before tucking her in is sing Amazing Grace. That may sound like a strange bedtime song, but it was the one that she always loved from the time she was a baby. We tried out all sorts of different songs, but that is the one that always soothed her. If we offer to sing something different, she still chooses the same song every night. What is sweet is that now she knows almost all the words to the verses, and she sings along. She always finishes by saying that it makes Jesus happy to hear us sing; I suppose telling her that repeatedly has made an impact.
Those are the only things in our daily routine that are actually planned faith moments. The rest of the time we use opportunities to teach as they present themselves. Perhaps since my daughter is only 2 1/2, I have not seen the need to create those experiences with special activities. I mean, as your children get older, I suppose there are all sorts of things like concerts and special events that can help reinforce the lessons you are conveying.
To be honest, I have found that as we model our faith before her, our daughter seems to be learning those lessons effortlessly. Father is the center of our lives, so He is just ever-present whether it be our conversation or our actions. For me, I am not so worried about imparting a knowledge of God to her. I think that is probably the easier part.
I am more concerned about conveying what it should be like to be in relationship with Papa. If I teach her nothing else in life, I want her to leave the nest with a passionate, loving relationship with her Father. My desire is to hear the voice of Father in my parenting so she will desire to come to know Him and walk with Him from a very early age.
Really, it boils down to hearing His voice. He will lead and guide us through this obstacle course called parenting. He desires to give us the insights we need to foster that bond between Him and our children. Ultimately, walking in His footsteps and modeling His love is the best way to gift our children with His presence in their lives.
Now it's your turn. What activities do you think are conducive to teaching our children about God? I would love to hear your feedback on this topic - Sound off!


